My home is not a place, it is people.
Published on February 17, 2005 By Cordelia In Home & Family

I’m stressed out, I’m pissed off and I’m eating McDonald’s AND drinking a cokefor the second time this week mind you!

Our house is supposed to close on the 28th. I’m not really sure what my problem is, exactly. The house is closing, it has all gone as smoothly as anything could possibly have gone, we have the money we need for closing, and yet…I could just scream.

I’m like an angry cat that sees a dog. Someone can walk by my desk and say “good morning” and my back is arched and my hair stands up and crackles with electricity. I’m ready to claw the living crap out of any poor, innocent bystander who dares to speak pleasantries to me. It must be stress. (For the most part I think I've succeeded in not taking it out on my co-workers. Which is good for them, because I don't know karate, but I know ka-ray-zee!).

I lost about 5 pounds on my recent “diet”, and here I am eating McDonald’s and drinking soda and feeling like my heart might explode at any moment. Undoubtedly those 5 pounds will be back tomorrow, smug and sure of their place on my rear end. And soda has been right out of my diet for a while now.  

I know its affecting my better half too, and we feed off each other. I know I need to throw the coke away, pay attention to my work, and go to the gym tonight.  

And replace the cola with vodka.

on Feb 17, 2005
OK Cordelia, pull it in, brethe, that's it, ....let it more time...

Did that help?

Everything's going smoothly where acquiring your home is concerned, so it's just stress as you say. The kind of stress you build up over nothing? Or is it really? Either way, do that deep breathing exercise again and let it go.

And do have the vodka later!
on Feb 17, 2005
What later? I'm drunk right now! (JK). Thanks serenity. I wish I had your...ah...serenity.
on Feb 17, 2005
And replace the cola with vodka.

Could you save some for me? I'm having a similar day!
on Feb 22, 2005
My friend, I know just how you feel. Everything is going somewhat smoothly on this side of the ocean, but I am also crazy with stress. I find myself yelling at my daughter and then I just cry because I feel like I'm such a bad mother. I can't wait until we're back in Cali and all this goes away.

Any chance you'll be visiting Cali? If not, maybe Emma and I can get there?
on Feb 22, 2005
why not skip the vodka and stay sober instead?
on Feb 22, 2005
Dag: Getting better. Just getting over some panic about...everything. Plus, I miss everyone in Cali - you know how it is.

You are not a bad mother, you are stressed. No, you should not take it out on Emma, so try to stop that. You are soon to go home...

We will be out there at the end of July for a wedding. We could see you then? And you are always welcome to visit!

Email me and tell me how you are (if you can).
on Feb 22, 2005
And write a blog!!
on Feb 22, 2005
Dude, you know what will make you feel a million times better. Go to your local video store and rent "Supersize Me". It's the funniest documentary I've ever seen. Well worth the money.

As for your blog, I laughed my ass off when I read the part about your coworkers. You're a fun read. Blog ON!

on Feb 22, 2005
Thanks trinitie!
on Mar 12, 2005
you know, cut the vodka and drink some... MOONSHINE!!! (at least get DRUNK.. lol)